I have thought for some time that one of the greatest problems in the church in America is that our knowledge and understanding of ourselves as sinners is largely theoretical and abstract—and I’m not talking about the liberal wing of the church when I say this. (Not primarily, anyway.) We airily acknowledge that of course we’re all sinners, and each of us is willing to admit that he is a sinner or she is a sinner in some generic sense—but try to get most churchgoers to accept that they are specific sinners, that they are guilty of various behaviors and heart attitudes which merit the wrath of God and are deserving of his judgment, and you find out very quickly what it feels like to hit a stone wall at a hundred miles an hour.
As a consequence, our understanding of the grace of God and our need for grace is equally abstract and theoretical. We may agree that we have a generic need for generic grace, but that doesn’t often penetrate to the reality of the sin in our hearts. For ourselves, this goes one of two ways. On the one hand, we minimize our sin: it’s not that big a deal, God can’t really be all that bothered by it, and what right does that person over there have to get so upset? We brush it under the rug, where it can grow happily without interference and rot out our floorboards. On the other, we maximize it: if anyone knew, they could never forgive me, and God can’t possibly really forgive me either. Our prayers become desperate pleas to God to just give us more time or more help so that we can stop doing these things before he judges us in his wrath and utterly crushes us. We set our sin up like a statue in the middle of everything where it can dominate our thinking; we can never get free of it and move past it because we’ve identified it as the central reality of our lives.
Either way, our functional expectation is that we can’t, or perhaps shouldn’t have to, live by grace. Grace is for “salvation,” which we implicitly understand as simply a “get out of Hell free” card; for normal life, our pattern of living by law remains largely unchallenged and unquestioned. If we’re guilty of sin, we deserve to be condemned for it; therefore, either we accept that we’re guilty and heap condemnation on ourselves, or else we reject condemnation by insisting that we’re not really guilty in any important way.




















