If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.
—James 1:5-8 (ESV)
[Christ] gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the shepherds and teachers, to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ, until we all attain to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to mature manhood, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ, so that we may no longer be children, tossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in deceitful schemes. Rather, speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ.
—Ephesians 4:11-15 (ESV)
I’ll be honest, I’m rather discouraged today; there just doesn’t seem to be a lot of good news out there. Of course, that’s hardly unusual—looking for good news from the world is rather like looking for your next rent payment on the roulette wheel—but it’s still got me down. In matters big (a financial crisis created by partisan stupidity that no one on either side of the aisle seems to have any real clue how to fix, but which may yet be exacerbated by yet more partisan stupidity) and small (the Seahawks are off to a bad start this season, both in their play and in their front office’s overreaction to it), things just seem to be going wrong all over the place. (Granted, the Red Sox did knock the Yankees out of the playoffs, but that only counts for so much when my own team is on the verge of 100 losses.) Throw in a bad night of sleep, and it’s a recipe for a funk.
But God is at work in these times as in any other, and last night when I was up into the wee hours and really starting to get low, he sent me a message, in the form of this YouTube video of one of my favorite groups, the defunct (and much-missed) Jacob’s Trouble:
Wind and Wave
(Lyrics are below; the Scriptures, of course, are above.) It was this morning, and is now, an important reminder to me: when I let circumstances get to me, when I let what seems to be an aura of bad news get me down, when I let myself get pessimistic, I’m falling back into allowing myself to be tossed around, buffeted about, and driven this way and that by the winds and waves of circumstances; I’m letting “human cunning” and “craftiness in deceitful schemes” wash me off my foundation and blow me out into the sea of doubt, rather than trusting in God. Granted, the circumstances right now aren’t pretty in a lot of respects, and it feels natural to me to expect the worst and then start glooming over it; but I have reason to stand on faith in God, rather than giving myself over to the wind and the wave, because I’ve seen other bad times (on a personal level, worse times) and he’s always brought me and my family through. Our country has seen other bad times, and he’s always brought the nation through; God has allowed this “almost-chosen people” to suffer many things, but he’s never failed us yet. The worries of the moment do not outweigh the testimony of the past; our hopes and fears for tomorrow are affected by this morning’s news, to be sure, but they are not at its mercy, for God by his providence continues to be at work, even through the bad news.
I don’t usually repost videos, but this song was another one God used this morning, just to remind me that even when the wind blows hard, he is with us on the road, and his mercy is always for us:
Kyrie
I have reason to trust in God; I have reason to be confident that the struggles of the present moment aren’t permanent. I just need to remember that, and to ask him for the wisdom and, yes, the faith I need to rise above those struggles, rather than allowing them to overcome me. And in doing so . . . I feel better already.
Wind and Wave
I needed wisdom on a matter of faith,
So I sought the Lord at his dwelling place—
Hello? Is there anyone home?
He said, “Let him who comes to me ask believing,
‘Cause faith is revealing but doubt is deceiving,
You know? Don’t you know?”
But I couldn’t seem to stand my ground—
I floundered, flailed, and almost drowned;
And as I sank, I thought I heard a sound.Chorus:
Wind and wave, to and fro, back and forth, stop and go,
Lost in doubt. Am I out or am I safe?
Fire and ice, land and sea. It’s up to you, it’s down to me.
Will I be eternally weak in faith
On the wind and the wave?A voice inside me said, “You’re on your own!
You blew it once too often, now He’s left you alone!”
Oh, no! Please say it isn’t so!
So I clung to my feelings, forgot the facts,
‘Til I heard the voice of Jesus telling me to relax,
“Let go. I’ll take control.”
Well, it was tough at first but I obeyed.
I just went limp and then I prayed,
“Please, Jesus, save me from this open grave.”Chorus
Now, I’m not saying that I will never doubt again,
‘Cause after all I’m just a man, yeah, yeah.
All I know is if I should doubt again
He’ll understand. He understands.“I will never leave you nor forsake you;
I will always be with you.
I will never leave you nor forsake you;
I will always be with you.”Chorus
Words and music: Steve Atwell, Mark Blackburn, and Jerry Davison
© 1989 Broken Songs
From the album Door into Summer, by Jacob’s Trouble